I don’t want to become a hermit and live in a box forever and never talk to anyone but it’s feeling like the safest option at this point.
“In certain types of subordinate clauses, either the subjunctive or the optative may be used. Which mood is to be used depends upon the tense of the verb in the main clause. The subjunctive has primary endings and is associated with primary tenses of the indicative. The optative has secondary endings and is used with secondary tenses in the indicative.” —C.A.E. Luschnig, Introduction to Ancient Greek Sequence of Moods
(Thanks conscriptuspater for the submission!)